TOOK ONE FOR THE TEAM

Okay,
I have a new story to share with the lot of you.  Recently, I have just gotten out of a thing that was almost a relationship and afterwards I had a huge crush on this guy from my favorite country, Belgium.  The thing is, I have two friends who also have a crush on him.  One of the girls is British with African decent and the other girl is American with Mexican decent.  Since I have had previous problems with friends and boys, I decided to lie and say that I do not have a crush on this guy to his face and allow one of my friends to have him.  I have never in my life done this and it is stuck in my head because I lied and also allowed potential bae to slip through my fingers.  Basically, the guy doesn't like my african decent friend, but he wants to have a sex-fling type of thing with the Mexican decent girl.  I thought that I was in denial because I like him, but I say that I don't. I can only tell the truth here on this blog because no one important (a.k.a. not from my uni) actually reads this blog, not that I know of, that is.  So I feel bad because I have basically given away one of my most fond crushes away. I have done this in the past and I still constantly feel like I have lost the love of my life because I never tried with him.  Similar things are happening now and I feel like I am repeating the past.  It's amazing because I have great conversations with this guy and we have grown closer these past few weeks. I enjoy the banter that we have and also how we make fun of each other, but at the same time it is flirtatious.  With the other girls I don't see the same interaction.  This interaction is only with me so I am going through this feeling where I feel like I have messed up and I want to fix it, but I can't because I have strong doubts that he wouldn't even remotely be into me anyways.  I am not sure, but I am going to try to ride this out and not think about it which is basically avoiding the situation.  I have no strong advice except follow your gut and do not fear possibilities even if they seem impossible to you they may not be.  The worst thing to do is to not try and give up because in the end, you wonder 'what if?'  that is the worst feeling to have, even worst than rejection.  Even with rejection, there is a form of conclusion and closure to move on instead of the way I feel where I have no clue and I am confused.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

I LOVE MY COLLEGE/UNIVERSITY CLASSES

Okayyyyy, this post will be short and sweet with a little romance to kindle the moods for anyone curious about syllabus week of college/university.  For this semesters classes, I endured two classes on Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday, three classes on Wednesday, and one class on Friday.  Mondays and Wednesdays are my favorite, not because of the classes, but because of who is in them.  I will come back to the who after I finish the what.  The classes seem relaxed and chill, but that makes sense since I am a communications major.  The work is actually easier than high school and more interesting than extracurriculars, which is saying something.  Ok, now onto the "romance."  I met this guy the third day of orientation week because he helped my mother bring the rest of my bags to my room.  My mother thought she saw a spark in his eye when he saw me.  I think my mother is hilarious.  Just for the record, almost every guy at my university is extremely attractive.  So this same guy is in one of my classes that meet Mondays and Wednesdays, which explains my love for those days.  So we kind of formed a bond in the second class this past Wednesday and the following Thursday I received the biggest hug of all time.  A hug literally means nothing, but this was the first hug from that I received from a guy in a very long time and also it was from a guy that I genuinely appreciated (the crush is starting to form).  I literally cannot stop thinking about that hug.  IT WAS JUST A HUG..., but it was warm and comfortable and lovely.  Needless to say, I am excited for Monday.  I don't want to get my hopes up, but I can't help myself.  My advice is to not feel like all of the guys in college/university want sex because not all of them do.  You just have to look in the right place for the right guy and even then you may not find a guy like that in your first year anyway.

Sincerely,
True predictions!

P.S.  Keep updated because we (including myself) would love to see how that romance kindles or dies out throughout my college/university experience.

BOYS IN UNIVERSITY/COLLEGE

Hello all,

This is just going to be an overview of the characteristics I first noticed when I encountered a boy in either college or university.  I have experience in both America and Europe because I am an American going to an international university in Britain.

First, boys from anywhere in the world in their first year of higher education look for the same thing from girls.  You do have to remember that only three months earlier these same boys were in high school/secondary school.  They have not changed drastically from the beginning of summer to now.  Just because the age qualifies these BOYS as "men," does not mean there has been a revelation where stupid becomes intelligent.  Of course there are exceptions to these terms!

Second, boys can be extremely smooth, especially in Europe.  They seem nice and sweet and caring, but trust and believe nothing can come from this in the first year of higher education.

Lastly, try not to bring a boy to your room...unless you want them there for extra curricular activities that involve gender equality and immersion.  I hope you understand what I mean.  Prepare for some kind of action if you bring back a boy to your room alone.

Luckily for me, I have not done any of these things, but I know many people who are highly knowledgable in this subject.  My advice is to just be safe in all of your decisions and put yourself in the mind of these sexually charged wieners in order to think straight and understand.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

MEETING PEOPLE IN UNIVERSITY/COLLEGE

Soooooo, I have started college and it is now two days into orientation.  Not saying that I am an expert or anything, but I have tips on how to meet people when you enter university or college.  I did not do these things, which is why I am writing a blogpost on a night when everyone is going out.

Tip #1:
Do not have a single room!

I thought that having the extra privacy would affect nothing.  I was wrong, the privacy at the beginning of a new school experience makes it harder to make friends.  If you do have a single dorm room then make sure to get out and go places.

Tip #2:
Make sure your parents leave ASAP!

The parents hinder you from doing anything and everything.  Try to get them moving along at the first opportunity possible.  It was especially hard for me because my mother is like my best friend and when I was without her I was uncomfortable, but that feeling of AWKWARD will go away once you meet friends.  So get over the awkward feeling of being alone because everyone feels that way and you are not special.

Tip #3:
Say hi!

Literally say hi, hello or something to everyone and anyone.  I personally only did this twice and because of it I have friends...I think.  People receive communication well unless they are mentally ill, but then again they usually don't mind because it is inevitable.  For me saying hi was hard.  I am an introvert when it comes to meeting new people not because I don't like meeting people or because I am afraid, but because I like solitude just as much as socializing.

Tip #4:
Explore!

You should explore both your campus and the area around your campus so that if any situation were to occur you are prepared for the worst.  I am not a fan of surprises so this helped me a lot.  I was able to go into the city and also wander around campus with all my free time being a lonely university student with no friends and family gone.

Tip #5:
Always have your phone!

People love to hand out their number during the this awkward start to the school chapter.  So make sure you have a phone to give that info.  Another reason is because when you are alone you can (watch me) whip that phone out (that previous parenthesis was referencing the song) and pretend that you were doing something important and that you have a life somewhere on the internet.

I don't know why I am giving these tips and not following them even though I could use them?  I am sitting in the common room with three other girls to my left watching a movie and I refuse to acknowledge their presence.  Seriously I won't even look at them because...

I am also one of the youngest in my university where everyone is over 18 easily as a freshman.  I did manage to meet a really cute guy because my mom got his help bringing my bags to my room.  She is literally my wing-woman.  He later said hi to me and remembered my face.  I died a little inside.

In all honesty, you can't mess up your first days of college with all of the activities most universities and colleges provide all you have to do is be yourself and live and learn.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Rushing Through Love

...I have no excuse for not posting in so long. I do have a life...sorta. I'm about to give some advice that I should have taken for myself a long time ago. I am going to share my journal entry from last week:

I have never truly loved a boy to my fullest potential. Obviously because I'm a teenager and another reason is because I know what I want. The guys I have encountered so far have not given me what I want so I play along in their little games to gain experience in being a teenager. In all actuality, I want someone in my future who can provide for me but still allows me to grow and be my own. Someone who can travel the world with me and not want children but at the same time have fun. Idk that's just what I want. 

Now I just wrote this to get it off my chest, but look at it.  I mean LOOK AT IT! This is legitness xD I wrote some deep stuff even though I am not very sentimental. My advice is to not rush love because what you want will come in time. I never understood this cause I've practically been single my entire life, but it's okay because the time will come when it comes. So yea I'm done and I will be posting more this summer.

Life and Boys Of Course

My absence is in my sincerest of apologies.  Life has been CRAZY since school started and now it is my job to fill in my lovely strangers on the events that occurred.  To start, I fancy a whole new kind of boy, but shit got real today. I say new kind because this boy is gorgeous and liked by all. At first, I thought I had a chance because I've gotten close to dating a dude out of my league. Apparently his best friend likes me and my nemesis that is dating one of my closest friends used to like him. I shall mention that that supposed friend no longer talks to me because of this chick. 

Now back to this boy that I now adore. We shall call him B for my security and sanity. He thinks that his friend likes me and that I like his friend, but in fact I like B not his friend. Since he thinks I like his friend, I am almost completely sure that I have no chance with him because guys don't believe in doing that whole "dating a friend's crush" deal. I will be single forever. I feel like there is no hope for me. I'm dying inside. Since this is an update, I have no advice. I have learned nothing about life, only about school and studying, but that is for another post in the future.

Peace out,

True Predictions!

DEFINITION OF A POTENTIAL THIRST TRAP

I am literally sitting here with my butt crack hanging out of my pants, no bra, and a large tee-shirt on.  I have not a care in the world anymore.  I am going to make this year the best year ever.  Well to start off with my FANTASTIC year, I developed a crush on a freshman, worst decision of my life and that will never happen again.  Then to kick it off right after that, I developed a crush on a sophomore.  That lasted a good week until my third crush developed on a hot junior boy.  I have completely forgotten this crush until now LOL.  I have become a thirst trap WAITING to happen.  It is like I have love at first sight for every cute single guy that walks in my path.  It is like I have no remorse in choosing a suitable high school boyfriend or maybe I have gone completely mad.  These are the things I asked myself until the other day.  I had completely pushed him aside.  I had completely ignored him and tried my hardest to forget him and throw him into the past.  It is as if every time I think that he is gone and I will never have to deal with him again he pops back into my life, my mind, and my thoughts...just like that.  This has been happening for years.  The same guy that is in basically all of my posts, the same guy that is in my text messages to friends, the same guy that I have had an on-again-off-again crush for most of my pubescent school days IS BACK.  I do not know if he is hear to stay or if he will actually disappear for good.  I do not like this whole "I don't know" thing that I have going on.  There has to be some reason why the heavenly Lord has continuously brought him back into my life...

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Thoughts On Him

Okay, I know that I am supposed to be moving on and forgetting about my old crush, but he is just getting cuter and cuter and sweeter and all that jazz.  He is now single, but I don't think he is interested.  The fact that I want to devour him in all the right ways is probably not helping.  I move on easily.  I can move from one guy to another in a heartbeat.  Of course I do not get to do anything with these guys except like them from a distance and keep up with their social media accounts... someone please assure me that I am not the only teenager that does this.  It is like this dude has me in a choke hold that I can't escape and I don't want to escape in a weird enjoyable way.  That was a bad analogy.  Even if I don't date him, I wanna at least get a kiss or something.  I mean I have liked the guy for too long, let me at least get something.  Does that make me thirsty?  That THIRST TRAP!  I want to tell him or let him get the hint or something.  I mean we probably live two minutes from each other so it wouldn't be that hard to get going doing something. Sigh... I need 20 seconds of courage before this summer ends.  I have no advice... good luck chicas.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Tumblr

Long time, no chat! I was scrolling through twitter, instagram, and tumblr when I realized that the people that I go to school with (in my grade) are absolutely gorgeous.  Like imagine perfect hair, perfect bodies, perfect faces, and perfect personalities.  I GO TO SCHOOL WITH FREAKING TUMBLR TEENS!!!! Now realize that I am very average looking, but I do have my charm.  Even so, how do I compete with all this gorgeousness that surrounds me on a day-to-day basis.  They are all perfect and I am normal.  Do you know what this does to my self esteem?  At first, I was all bummed out about being average, but then I realized that that is not good enough.  I need to be FLAWLESS as well.  This is my last year to shine and what better way to end it than with a bang.  So this year, I vow to get my hot bod, my face to look spectacular, and to fix this poopy personality.  Okay, my personality isn't poopy, but it does need its work done.  Oh and for the cherry on top of all this perfection, that I will own in two weeks before school starts, I need to get a hot boyfriend.  Oh yea! My boy-free time is over.  I have the perfect candidate in mind.  My advice is that if you don't like something about yourself, just change it.  if it can't be fixed embrace it with all you've got because someone out there would love to have what you have.  Not everyone is fortunate.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

This Is My Secret To Keep

I have decided that I want to keep this a secret, yet I am telling the internet.  I have a secret crush and I am choosing not to tell anyone (you know besides the entire internet world).  I want this to be my hidden pleasure, my indulgence, but most importantly my secret.  I know I could never actually get him so I like him secretly so that only my mind will know.  There will be no drama.  There will be nothing to say to anyone.  Thought I should share because who am I kidding, I cannot keep secrets fully secret.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Got Me Daydreamin'

I just had a realization. When I (or anyone else) daydreams about a person that is of interest, that daydream can give clues as to whether I actually like that person or the memories that we shared. There is this one boy that I daydream about. For example, what we used to do and how I could go back in time and re-do all that we did, but I cannot imagine a future with him. I also daydream of another guy, but this time my day dreams take me into the past memories and future wishes. I can imagine a future with him. There is a difference between loving the memories and loving the person who makes the memories.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Who Actually Reads These Posts!

Sometimes I feel like I am just writing a journal entry and not publishing my life stories for the world to see.  For example, I wonder if anyone I care about sees these posts or if the people I write about see these posts and whether they know that I'm talking about them.  Sometimes I hope that they do see these posts just so they know how I feel about them.  Some days I want to edit each post and place their full names just so people know that I'm no joke.  A question I often ask myself is "Do people actually read these?"  If I have actual people reading my posts it makes my day brighter.  It takes a lot of courage and comfort in ones self to post their life on the web.  I would just love to say thank you readers!  Those that I talk about in my posts I would like to say thank you for the experience and I love and hate you all!

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Being In Love

This post coincides with the previous post "Ratings Vary."  I was talking to the same guy in the previous post about what we want in life (relationship wise) and at this point we are still friends that have minor feelings for each other.  In the past I told him that I loved a certain guy (reminder I am just a helpless girl that is clueless about everything).  After I told him this he tells me that it would never happen because of reasons.  I have already had the urge to punch and/or slap him so those feelings were just heightened.  Recently he told me that he was in love with his ex girlfriend and I was a nice friend and asked him all the right questions and said all the right things, but in my head I was saying "why the hell do you love this basic chick that obviously doesn't give a single fart about you.  She has played you and you don't even realize.  You are the sweat on the palms of her hands.  Nobody give a fart about the sweat on our hands and that is why we, as humans, wipe it off.  If a girl does not date you then either she or you fucked up and nothing will make things go back to normal."  I'm so sorry for my language in these past posts, but a boys stupidity makes me hella pissed.  At least with my "love" neither one of us did anything to each other.  Honestly we all have to remember that guys fall for girls twice as fast as a girl would fall for a guy.  This guy I'm texting also fails to remember that the girlfriend before his "love" was also his "love" so there really is no point to this conversation.  I don't even see the point of this blog post because I am just ranting.  I also have no advice to give because I see no point in this post.  Thanks for reading anyway.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Ratings Vary

One time I was talking to this guy and he had told me he liked me and I told him that I liked him.  One day we were texting and we decided to give each other a rating from 1-10.  I gave him a nine, I believe, and then he responds saying I was a solid seven.  The amount of anger and fury that pulsed through my body was real.  I wanted to punch his face through the phone.  He then goes on to explain that he doesn't believe anyone is perfect.  I understood that, but why the fuck was he making me average when I believed he was extremely hot.  I was depressed, pissed, and less confident that night and on top of all of that I wanted to punch my crush and make him feel pain.  I did not show my anger through the rest of the texting conversation that night.  Recently we started talking again, as friends, because I could never date that douchebag.  We bring up the rating again and this time I do not rate him.  He again rates me as a seven and my frustration and anger comes back as a deja vu moment.  After his rating I then tell him my rating for him and gave him a seven as well for his basic ass and for pissing me off and for his personality.  I now realize that one should never return to a lost love because they are still the same as before.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Boy Trouble!

So I know I said that I was done with boys, but one of the boys in my recent life (blog) has taken over my thoughts.  I cannot get rid of the thoughts of him and it is killing me.  The bad part about all of this is that he seems to not give a single f*** about me.  Or maybe I am overreacting.  We don't text as often, we barely do the normal stuff we used to, and we are always busy.  I can't help that I am forming a crush.  This is happening to me quite easily because we go way back as friends.  I do not want to fall for him and get screwed like corn.  I am over here thinking "oh how lovely would it be to do this and that and see this and that...with him *twinkle eyes*."  No, absolutely no!  I will not be the only one with a crush.  I absolutely hate having a crush and having there be no possible way he can be all mine.  There is something even worst about this situation.  I want to tell him how I feel, but I can't because he says he doesn't want a relationship.  If that is not friend zoning then I don't know what is.  For once on this blog I have no help to give.  I'm so very sorry *sobs in the background.  At this moment in life I need someone else to give me advice on what I should do.  Right now I am waiting for summer because there will be more free time, but that is extremely hard to do when I can't even finish my homework at a normal time because of my distracting thoughts.  I have also tried to think about others such as celebrity crushes or other cute guys, but nothing is working.  When I fall for a guy (like truly fall...like a serious crush), there is no getting out of that zone.  I do not have time for this.  I could seriously be pimpin down the halls of school like "yea guys I am single and ready to mingle," but I can't do that because the state of mind that I am in makes me think only of him.  At this point I am ranting and rambling so I will stop and end this before I go too far off topic.  Good luck to those who have a possible formation of a crush like me!

Sincerely,
True Predictions (no prediction right now though)!

New Obsession

I need a new obsession.  I know I'm over all the guys and focusing on my work and all, but I'm slightly bored during my free time.  I'm sure the obsession will come soon enough.  They always come right after one obsession ends because that's what teenagers do.  For now, I guess I just chill still.  I sound like an addict.  I should not be posting half asleep late at night.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Free Time

I rarely get free time to just chill alone. Recently I've been making time for that. Like today for lunch I went outside and sat on a bench swing and all of last week for break and lunch in school, I found a new place to be alone and sit and think. It's made me more calm and collected. I feel like a hippie without the presence of weed and soothing music. The time spent alone is the time I cherish for my junior year. My advice you all you girls and maybe some guys out there is to cherish your time alone and if you get that time, make time for it. Even if it's only five minutes. 

Sincerely,

True Predictions!

That One Couple

There is always that annoying couple. I'm talking about that couple that stays together for a long time, BUT in between break up a million and one times. And it's not the fact that they break up every week. It's the fact that they tell you about it via social media. Like on twitter the girl will say something like, "I think this is the end," but then the next day they are all like, "I love him so much." Like OMG we know y'all aren't done so don't give me your sob story. It's even worst on Instagram. They will take down all pictures of them together and change their bio from "Bobby Sullivan I love BS since 4/7/14" to "life is too short to waste time with people who don't care." The bad thing is they actually think people care when we are all rolling our eyes at the stupidity. My advice is, if you're in an on-off relationship, STOP TELLING THE WORLD EVERYTHING!

Sincerely,

True Predictions!

Conformity

I'm trying to conform or explore another clique. I've never been the one to conform to just one group, but ever since this new school environment I have been stuck in the same group. I don't necessarily like this group (the people are cool), but I can't stand people for a certain amount of time and they are not really my type. I have yet to figure out the advice I would give, but I'll figure it out eventually. Hopefully soon!

Sincerely, 

True Predictions!

Recap

It has been quite a long time since I've posted so I must give you all a synopsis of the past couple of weeks. Basically I can not keep a guy for a long time, but I do not fret for I know there are many fish in this sea of boys. I'm planing on swimming until I find my soul fish. Of course I won't be one of those loose fish that wants to suck up all the water from their thirst and bring in all the fish then poop them back out. I will be that fish glancing and the nearby fish in every school of fish until one catches my eye. Yes, one eye because fish cannot see straight on since their eyes are on the sides of their face. My point is there are no more J or the long lost friend. My advice is to not be sad for a lengthy period of time because ain't nobody got time fo dat (yea I just said that...get over it)!

Sincerely,

True Predictions!