Life and Boys Of Course

My absence is in my sincerest of apologies.  Life has been CRAZY since school started and now it is my job to fill in my lovely strangers on the events that occurred.  To start, I fancy a whole new kind of boy, but shit got real today. I say new kind because this boy is gorgeous and liked by all. At first, I thought I had a chance because I've gotten close to dating a dude out of my league. Apparently his best friend likes me and my nemesis that is dating one of my closest friends used to like him. I shall mention that that supposed friend no longer talks to me because of this chick. 

Now back to this boy that I now adore. We shall call him B for my security and sanity. He thinks that his friend likes me and that I like his friend, but in fact I like B not his friend. Since he thinks I like his friend, I am almost completely sure that I have no chance with him because guys don't believe in doing that whole "dating a friend's crush" deal. I will be single forever. I feel like there is no hope for me. I'm dying inside. Since this is an update, I have no advice. I have learned nothing about life, only about school and studying, but that is for another post in the future.

Peace out,

True Predictions!

DEFINITION OF A POTENTIAL THIRST TRAP

I am literally sitting here with my butt crack hanging out of my pants, no bra, and a large tee-shirt on.  I have not a care in the world anymore.  I am going to make this year the best year ever.  Well to start off with my FANTASTIC year, I developed a crush on a freshman, worst decision of my life and that will never happen again.  Then to kick it off right after that, I developed a crush on a sophomore.  That lasted a good week until my third crush developed on a hot junior boy.  I have completely forgotten this crush until now LOL.  I have become a thirst trap WAITING to happen.  It is like I have love at first sight for every cute single guy that walks in my path.  It is like I have no remorse in choosing a suitable high school boyfriend or maybe I have gone completely mad.  These are the things I asked myself until the other day.  I had completely pushed him aside.  I had completely ignored him and tried my hardest to forget him and throw him into the past.  It is as if every time I think that he is gone and I will never have to deal with him again he pops back into my life, my mind, and my thoughts...just like that.  This has been happening for years.  The same guy that is in basically all of my posts, the same guy that is in my text messages to friends, the same guy that I have had an on-again-off-again crush for most of my pubescent school days IS BACK.  I do not know if he is hear to stay or if he will actually disappear for good.  I do not like this whole "I don't know" thing that I have going on.  There has to be some reason why the heavenly Lord has continuously brought him back into my life...

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Thoughts On Him

Okay, I know that I am supposed to be moving on and forgetting about my old crush, but he is just getting cuter and cuter and sweeter and all that jazz.  He is now single, but I don't think he is interested.  The fact that I want to devour him in all the right ways is probably not helping.  I move on easily.  I can move from one guy to another in a heartbeat.  Of course I do not get to do anything with these guys except like them from a distance and keep up with their social media accounts... someone please assure me that I am not the only teenager that does this.  It is like this dude has me in a choke hold that I can't escape and I don't want to escape in a weird enjoyable way.  That was a bad analogy.  Even if I don't date him, I wanna at least get a kiss or something.  I mean I have liked the guy for too long, let me at least get something.  Does that make me thirsty?  That THIRST TRAP!  I want to tell him or let him get the hint or something.  I mean we probably live two minutes from each other so it wouldn't be that hard to get going doing something. Sigh... I need 20 seconds of courage before this summer ends.  I have no advice... good luck chicas.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Tumblr

Long time, no chat! I was scrolling through twitter, instagram, and tumblr when I realized that the people that I go to school with (in my grade) are absolutely gorgeous.  Like imagine perfect hair, perfect bodies, perfect faces, and perfect personalities.  I GO TO SCHOOL WITH FREAKING TUMBLR TEENS!!!! Now realize that I am very average looking, but I do have my charm.  Even so, how do I compete with all this gorgeousness that surrounds me on a day-to-day basis.  They are all perfect and I am normal.  Do you know what this does to my self esteem?  At first, I was all bummed out about being average, but then I realized that that is not good enough.  I need to be FLAWLESS as well.  This is my last year to shine and what better way to end it than with a bang.  So this year, I vow to get my hot bod, my face to look spectacular, and to fix this poopy personality.  Okay, my personality isn't poopy, but it does need its work done.  Oh and for the cherry on top of all this perfection, that I will own in two weeks before school starts, I need to get a hot boyfriend.  Oh yea! My boy-free time is over.  I have the perfect candidate in mind.  My advice is that if you don't like something about yourself, just change it.  if it can't be fixed embrace it with all you've got because someone out there would love to have what you have.  Not everyone is fortunate.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

This Is My Secret To Keep

I have decided that I want to keep this a secret, yet I am telling the internet.  I have a secret crush and I am choosing not to tell anyone (you know besides the entire internet world).  I want this to be my hidden pleasure, my indulgence, but most importantly my secret.  I know I could never actually get him so I like him secretly so that only my mind will know.  There will be no drama.  There will be nothing to say to anyone.  Thought I should share because who am I kidding, I cannot keep secrets fully secret.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Got Me Daydreamin'

I just had a realization. When I (or anyone else) daydreams about a person that is of interest, that daydream can give clues as to whether I actually like that person or the memories that we shared. There is this one boy that I daydream about. For example, what we used to do and how I could go back in time and re-do all that we did, but I cannot imagine a future with him. I also daydream of another guy, but this time my day dreams take me into the past memories and future wishes. I can imagine a future with him. There is a difference between loving the memories and loving the person who makes the memories.

Sincerely,
True Predictions!

Who Actually Reads These Posts!

Sometimes I feel like I am just writing a journal entry and not publishing my life stories for the world to see.  For example, I wonder if anyone I care about sees these posts or if the people I write about see these posts and whether they know that I'm talking about them.  Sometimes I hope that they do see these posts just so they know how I feel about them.  Some days I want to edit each post and place their full names just so people know that I'm no joke.  A question I often ask myself is "Do people actually read these?"  If I have actual people reading my posts it makes my day brighter.  It takes a lot of courage and comfort in ones self to post their life on the web.  I would just love to say thank you readers!  Those that I talk about in my posts I would like to say thank you for the experience and I love and hate you all!

Sincerely,
True Predictions!